This past week has been an absolute whirlwind of crazy. I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally sick to the point that heath problems I won't mention put me in the hospital one night and sent me back to the doctor a few days later. I have missed a lot of class this week, which has stressed me out immensely, and I'm basically on bed rest until Sunday when I go back to work. I'm missing out on two big money days that I should've worked this weekend and I'm going to Chicago in two weeks and I've been trying to save up for it. On top of that, I have a midterm to do this weekend as well.
On the surface, life just seems so unimaginably crazy right now. I'm exhausted still, but I'm a busy-body that doesn't like being told to stay home. My boyfriend is in nursing school and basically has to study all day every day, so I don't want to bug him while I'm bored out of my mind either. After a couple days of all this going on, I finally broke down the night before last and just sobbed. Somewhere in there, however, I started praying. I talked to God for the first time, one on one, in a long time. I have my daily moments where I might throw up a prayer or thank Him for something throughout my day, but as for actual talking and a relationship... it had been awhile.
And after an hour or so of that, I cannot even explain how much better I felt. My shoulders felt lighter, I physically felt a little better, but mostly, it felt like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I felt happier than I had in days, and everything didn't seem so crazy important anymore.
I found out this week that I have some fantastic friends. My roommate helped take care of me when I needed it the most. Not to mention, my boyfriend has stayed by my side the whole way through it, even skipping class. And on top of even that, my parents have been amazing. They've checked on me night and day, stayed up with me, brought me soup and crackers, and so many other things.
I love life. And though I'm still not too excited about this past week, there is so much good that has come from it as well. And I'm excited to see how next week goes. And the next. At this moment, I am filled to the brim with love for the people around me. It was a huge wake up call to focus on what's really important instead of stressing about little things around me...and overall, I guess you could say I'm thankful for it in a way.
I hope you've all had a fabulous week and have a great weekend as well.