The Terrors of Being an [ALMOST] Senior in College.
I don't sleep much. That's due to a multitude of reasons, but one of the main ones is that my mind literally races for as long as I allow it to once I lay down. I feel like there are so many things I should be doing ALL THE TIME and it makes for long nights. So let's go through a list of the academic related ones:
When do I apply? How do I apply? Where should I apply? What if I wait too long and don't get in? Should I get a part time job and wait another year or should I try to get a "real" job and not worry about it for awhile? What do I do when I get in? Are there dorms? Apartments? Do I have class every day? 3 days? Night classes? If I go overseas, do I take the GRE? Do I have to take something like it? What if I move somewhere and have no friends for a year?
It's an endless list of terrifying questions.
// College Courses
This one basically goes along with grad school. I have an advisor that helps me figure out what to take each semester, but no matter how many times I organize and lay out my schedule in front of me and prove to myself that I'm going to graduate on time, the voice in the back of my mind tells me that I'm actually taking all the wrong classes and won't graduate until 2024.
// Not Having Enough Extra-Curricular Classes/Clubs/Etc
Oh, that extra amount of "stuff" that makes your resume look better.
Extra-curriculars always seem so weird to me. I know they matter, but I would love for them not to. I didn't really do a whole lot in high school - theatre, chorus, and soccer for a bit, but in college it's like a whole other ballpark. Internships? Jobs? Do you hold any leadership positions in clubs on campus? Are you even in clubs on campus? What about sororities? Academic clubs for your major?
I know it won't happen, but I feel like my grad school rejection letters will have a line in it somewhere that says:
"We're sorry, but you really just didn't have enough outside factors to push your application to the next level"
And then I'll have to repeat college and find ALL the clubs to join.
// Letting It Go By Too Fast
It's like you get to this point, with only a year left, and you look back and say "OMG, I should've done this, this, that, this, and that. College are supposed to be the best years of your life!" And then you rethink every social decision you've made in the last three years like they're the only friendly interactions you'll have to look back on for the rest of your life.
Sometimes you end up feeling like Kevin.
And when you're an English major, sometimes you feel like Chuck.
But overall, I think it'll turn out okay.
I'm hoping. Crossing my fingers.
How was your senior year of college?
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